Today May 28th would have been my younger sister’s 27th birthday..
Normally this day hits me like a train and I’m in bed for days over come with grief. This year I did not lay in bed for a week or spend every day in tears wishing she could be here to experience all that life would have given to her. This year the greif hit me but it left me able to function.
This past Tuesday my midget graduated 5th grade! I’m so stoked over this that you would think he was graduating highschool or getting married. My parents are still happily married after 30 years. My husband and I are approaching our 11th wedding anniversary. I love my job both with my parent’s company and K&M. Our house and cars our paid for. We have no major debt or bills to deal with. I have a good happy life. My joy is brought in many forms, two wonderful best friends that I would do anything for and whom would return the same. A heathly family and older brothers that hung the moon. In three short days I will turn 29 years old.
But with all that joy my sister is still not here to enjoy and celebrate life with us. Some how this year I’ve been able to understand her passing and still mourn her, but stop letting it shut me down completely for weeks. I miss her so much every day and am thankful for the time we had growing up. I still get hit with moments when I want to cry simply because I think, hear, or see something she would have enjoyed.
I can hardly believe that it’s been almost 12 years since we lost her to a drunk who decided to use his truck to beat up his girlfriend this time and in the end resulted in killing everyone in the car including my sister, his baby daughter, and his girlfriend my sister’s best friend.
While I was able to function today I did so with a pissy attitude and for that I do apologize to everyone. But at least I wasn’t in bed for the entire week..
Maybe next year it will get better. For today I just want to say thank you to those that understood my pissy tude and dealt with me anyhow.
Thank you!
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Awww man, I just want to cry for you.
You and I have had a lot of conversation about this and from time to time when I talk about my sister I feel a little guilt and ache in my heart for you. The love that you carry for her each day shines brighter than that moon….
I’m so happy that you were not in bed for a week this year but I remember last year when you were. And while it’s nice to know you’re functioning this year it’s difficult for me, as your friend, to hear your pain in this post.
*Hugs* You know I love ya girlie….
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